Tears of Joy!

On this awful journey of grief I have met many beautiful families that have suffered similar losses.  In January of 2011 Zeb and I made our journey to Faiths Lodge where we met a handful of other couples who had also lost an infant.  We each had our own story, we were all in different "stages" of our grief and none of our losses were the same.   My heart broke each time I heard each of their  stories but one thing I realized is that each of us had unbelievable Faith in God. 

Just last fall one of the couples I met there suffered another loss.  I remember going to the funeral of their sweet baby girl and sobbing.  Here this couple that were supposed to be welcoming their Rainbow Baby into this world are once again having to say good bye less than a year after they said good bye to their first child.  My heart ached and the only thing I could do was pray for them pray that some way some how they would heal and God knows the healing part never ends. 

Today I had a pity party it just seemed as if everything was going wrong in my day.  I won't bore you with the details but I will tell you that on my way home I remembered what a bad day was, it was the day my son died it was the day I walked in on someone do CPR on him so my day today just means yes I may have to fork out a little money for the car door I scratched when my car door flew open in the wind but hey its just money and I got to walk in on my beautiful baby girl extremely excited to see me and just like that I forgot all about my bad day.

And the blessings and good news kept coming.  I logged onto Facebook to see my beautiful friends who have suffered 2 losses in the past 2 years post an update that they welcomed a healthy baby girl into this world and at that very moment the tears flowed and my arms were filled with goosebumps as I saw their smiling faces holding that 6 pound 15 ounce girl.  I can honestly say I'm not sure I have ever seen a couple more happier than they were in that picture.  That baby girl has been blessed by God because they are going to love her to the end of the world and back. I can imagine they are looking forward to the sleepless nights, poopy diapers and temper tantrums. 

To my dear friends I will continue to pray for you and your new addition!  I will also continue to pray that your Rainbow Baby is just as fiesty as mine because what fun is a Rainbow without the many different colors ;) (by colors I mean moods ranging from happy to see you mom to I'm going to lay here kicking and screaming because I can!)  Love you both