Remember when......

Driving home from my sister's tonight I heard the song "Remember When" by Alan Jackson and it made me think of the day Zeb and I got married. What a wonderful day it was at the time I thought it was the best day of my life and you know it was ONE of the best days of my life right next to the day my children were born. Every time I hear that song I always imagine Zeb and I at our 50th Wedding Anniversary dancing and talking about all of the years we have been married. We are coming up on 5 Years of marriage this year and to be honest in those 5 Years we have been through more than a lot of couples who have been married 50 Years. Some say the first year is your hardest or the first 5 Years are your hardest I must agree at this time. Our first 5 Years of marriage were not hard because of us fighting over money issues or how to raise our children they were hard because we lost a child. My dreams of Zeb and I dancing at our 50th Wedding Anniversary have now somewhat changed. I still imagine us still dancing to the same song but now I imagine us crying together because not all of those memories were happy ones even though most will be happy ones there is still that one painful one bigger than any pain most people cannot even imagine. But regardless when I took those wedding vows with Zeb we both committed to for better or worse till death do us part and I know I speak for both of us when I say "I'm In" because after all we have been through there is no possible way anyone else in this world would ever be able to understand me or comfort me the way Zeb does. I love him and trust me there are days where I don't like him so much but I LOVE him and when I married him I knew I loved him. He just gets me and I get him even on those bad days or those sad days or those really really sucky days we are in this for the long run however long that maybe and lets all pray its for many many years for which most of years I pray are happy years where we hopefully welcome more children into this world so that we can tell them all about their big brother Ashton and how because of him our family has become what they are today and because of him mom and dad realized that the love can conquer all. I can only hope that our children someday find the love that Zeb and I feel for eachother.

It kind of makes me giggle because I'm pretty sure you all are reading this dry heaving. I just have to remind you all that no where in this blog did I mention that our love was perfect I just said one simple statment "We get eachother!"